Returning.

Hi there.

It's been awhile. I've missed this space and hope you've missed me, too.

Where to begin? I was so happy to home with my family this winter. The end of the 2016 had been rough, and I was looking to make some changes and regain some balance. I had planned to go back to LA (where I live) in January, but two days before I planned to leave, my mom got very sick. The next two months are a blur of doctor's appointments, ER visits, and medications. I took a job on a pilot in Chicago (where I'm from & where I am now) during that period because I needed/wanted to go back to work, and even though she was mostly recovered, she still needed some help. Everything seemed fine. The plan was to finish the job and head back to California.

Then, 5 weeks ago, everything changed. The younger of the Glitter Pups was diagnosed with lymphoma. If you knew me in real life, you would know I live for my dogs. They are the first faces that I see in the morning and the last I see at night. They are my best friends. I like people and all, I just love my dogs more ;) And so, when one of them is given 4-6 weeks to live, it broke me.

Even if you're not a dog person, I've bet you've been where I am now. In one of those spaces in between the present and the future, where every moment seems to matter so much and yet nothing seems real. I wake up wondering if every day is her last day while simultaneously Googling cancer treatment protocols and random vitamins that might make her live longer, all while not sleeping to make sure she's still breathing - I generally feel nuts.

I feel it in my bones that what's happening now is one of those things that will divide my life into a "before" and "after." I know it. My heart is totally shattered. And, most days, the words just aren't coming. Who am I kidding? Most days I can barely breathe.

So, please bear with me. I'll try my best to not be so absent. I have a pretty big backlog of posts to finish up, but I'll post them as soon and as often as I can. I've been holding on to so many exciting things. I can't wait to share them with you!


Thanks for being understanding & all my love,
G.