Dating Sucks

I'm officially behind. I pulled a muscle in my back and haven't done much for the last two days because any movement  - even typing - hurts. Please pray it gets better soon. I'm getting super frustrated because my to-do list is long and I can't do a darn thing right now.

Today's prompt: Your current relationship

Ha. It also says if you're single, discuss that.

I'm not quite sure there's a lot to say? This is the first time in my adult life that I've ever not dated at all. The first time I'm not even thinking about dating. If I'm being totally 100% honest the last thing I want is to be in a relationship right now, but  I would never say that out loud. I wish that were different, but it's just... not.

Sometimes I think it's my subconscious wanting to go back to California. It doesn't want me to be tied down here. But, then there are other times when I think that's just an excuse to not put myself out there. And the rest of the time I'm just to exhausted to care. Until that changes, I'm going to go it alone.

I've been single for about two years now - since I moved back to Chicago. I went out a few dates with one of my high school boyfriends when I first came back to town and it didn't go so well. He was perfectly nice on paper, but there was a lot of weird happening under the surface and it really scared me.

Here is the moment when I should have realized that it was doomed: If a grown man in his late 30s is angrily telling you how you breaking up with him when you were 14 ruined the next three years of his life while simultaneously forgetting that you were that relationship, run. (No joke, this happened. In a very romantic, fancy restaurant he got super bitter and spit wine when talking about a bad breakup he went through. I had to stop him and say, "I remember. It was when we broke up." He shut up pretty fast after that. It left me wondering if that is his standard bad relationship story that he tells dates to garner sympathy and just forgot that it was me? )